Random thoughts

Three years ago, she was arrested for threatening to shoot the governor.

She thinks all white cars are terrorists.

When her doctor graduated, she started hiding her pills.

She'd been flashing her neighbors for days before we met.

We drew a medication contract she follows religiously.

She's afraid of the day I'll graduate.

I don't tell her I feel the same.

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About purplesque

Psychiatrist, cook, bookworm, photographer. Not necessarily in that order.
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39 Responses to Random thoughts

  1. wow.. I don't know what to say… Perhaps she'll still continue to follow the contract… You're obviously someone who cares a lot about the patients they meet and I really admire that.

  2. LeendaDLL says:

    so much hard-core responsibility! i can barely manage my own life, can't imagine worrying about patients as well.

  3. Lakshmi says:

    Thank God I am not a psychiatrist. I don't have the guts.

  4. I don't know why I felt a little depressed after reading this message. Sometimes I really believe that people's sickness all comes from loneliness.

  5. ((Purplesque))There's so much "sanity" (I'm not fond of that word) and sense in her. She's functioning in alternate ways……Were you here when there was a sniper in the Washintington/VA area– who "threatened" the East Coast– and was thought to be riding around highways in a white box truck? Shooting at people who were at gas stations? Pumping gas? (I think I have those factoids straight — so much was muddled in the news, and the panic) — "Sane" people were diving into their cars when white box trucks slowed down near gas stations, and on higways. "Normal" people bought gas in the middle of the night, dressed in black, so that they wouldn't be targets.And "losing" people to graduations ….makes plenty of sense.So does flashing, if you want people to see you.Wow. Your job? Amazing. That lady? I hope she does well, with her life. It won't be easy, or like anyopne else's, that's for sure.And your being fearful…if you weren't, I'd be worried.((((((morehugs)))))

  6. Here's a link to a story that followed the first round of sniper things…different color truck, same panic…..I have a friend in Williamsburg who didn't leave her house for days. Rational? Irrational? I try sometimes to imagine what it's like to have a mind that replicates and enhances that fear, over and over and over again, but for no "reason" — no reason that the rest of the world can appreciate, anyway. It's…..gah. Humbling?

  7. enhances that fear, over and over and over again Ooops. I left out "that kind of" — "enhances that kind of fear, over and over and over again"*waves, and goes back to washing the dishes*

  8. Zotta says:

    It's defintiely a poem! Might even make the New Yorker or something.

  9. Aubrey says:

    It's very hard for two people wrapped up in each other's lives to have to work for the day when that connection has to end.
    Singing Horse is right to say that loneliness is the root of all sickness, but people should beware of dependence as well.

  10. Purplesque says:

    Loneliness is definitely part of it, but not all. This lady has a very supportive family..

  11. Purplesque says:

    Oh yes, RobbbieDobbbie…every time I see a person who's dealing with all these demons, yet getting up every day, getting dressed, working, caring for others, surviving. I know I couldn't do that. Its very humbling. Her fears of white cars come from somewhere else, but they do come from some place.

  12. Purplesque says:

    Yes. Sometimes the clinic is the only place where some patients can find structure; any disruption in that structure can be devastating. It can be tricky.

  13. Emjay says:

    A lot of people need a rigid schedule with no changes just to be able to function. When my father was let go home after his stroke (he had 6 months in a "home") they told mum he had to have the same order of things every day. For 21 years now he has had his scotch just before mid-day and lunch at 12.30; shower at 5pm, dinner at 7pm. etc etc. If something happens to throw that order out it disrupts him for days.

  14. Purplesque says:

    Yes..we all need structure, and more so when the brain function declines.

  15. Oh – yes– I didn't mean that that was a possible source for her; it only reminded me of that situation, and how "normal" people reacted …. people have so many kinds of realities and how they confront them is fascinating. I sent an email to my friend in VA, after leaving that comment for you — she said that she still reacts — shudders — when she sees a white box truck. And she no longer pumps her own gas. But she tells her daughter (who lives in "Tornado Alley") not to be afraid of tornadoes. I'm glad this lady has you to help her along her way…

  16. Purplesque says:

    Wow..I think we get traumatized more easily when the scare is bigger-than-life. I see what you mean. Along with 'sanity', normal is another relative word.Doctors come and go. I'm glad she has good family support. Thats whats going to maintain her.

  17. I forgot to tell you –I logged in to Twitter yesterday for a while…first time in about a year…thought I'd say Hi — they still make it hard to just do that (at least it seemed that way…I clicked on "following" you…which seems kind of stalker-y…but I couldn't send a message. Anyway, I talked to myself for awhile and logged out. Twitter's super — I'm just not too familiar with it. Last year it was verrrrrrrrrrrry slow, and harder to navigate, so I ditched it. Yesterday seemed more user-friendly. But I still felt goofy, yapping alone into the cybershere!Ha — I'm in the middle of ripping apart the porch (curtain rods, valances, things Mom sewed and instaled 40 years ago…like that) and won't be Vox-ing much…just wanted to let you know about Twitter in case you notice I was "following " you — I didn't want you to think it was odd. Have a great day!

  18. Emjay says:

    "Decline" might be a relative term also …. I find that as I get older I am much less flexible – if the poor astro-dweeb puts his orange juice infront of my cranberry juice in the fridge it takes me an extra 20 seconds to get my breakfast ready and that is just not acceptable! (yes, I'm getting pettier too! LOL)

  19. Purplesque says:

    Oh yes..I'm 'following' you, too! To send me/anyone a message, type @username before your message. Since I started following you, your updates are now all showing up on my twitter!But I know that feeling of typing something in cyberspace and leaving it there..not very comfy. The one thing I like about twitter is that I know whats going on in the world. Much faster than any news channel! :)Good luck with the porch (will there be pictures?)!!

  20. Purplesque says:

    That decline seems to begin in the later twenties. I've already started down the long road to anal-dom..lol

  21. Thanksfor the following and the tip — !And thanks about the porch — I wanted to take some pix today but the camera kept steaming up.It's not done-done, anyway…still sort of crummy. Butif it's cooler in the morning I will. I'm VERY happy with it!!

  22. Purplesque says:

    but the camera kept steaming up.lol..hopefully you'll have better luck in the morning! It must be good if you're happy with it.

  23. I just sat out there, and pretended it was cool and breezy. Overall, it's super. Still much scrubbing , etc., to do.But it's a totally different room now, designed for me. Yay! It's ruffly and light and very fluffy-comfy. I know that lots of people won't care for it……that's OK.Hey- have a good night!

  24. Purplesque says:

    Sounds perfect. πŸ™‚ Do you take contracts?

  25. heeeeee — that's nice of you! One really neat thing came out of all this: I found paintings I did years ago — a couple of big canvases.. they were packed away. So I put one on the porch wall. It's a soothing one, pale pale pinks and ivories……..with a light shimmer in lightest pink shade. I also found my brushes. Still looking for the paints — not sure how long acrylics last.I'm going to try another one……one of these days, if the paints aren't solid in the tubes. It was always so much fun. Of course, they're carp. But I loved doing them and I like looking at them.Maybe I'll do pix of them.

  26. Purplesque says:

    Paintings! Yess..please. I'd love to see them. I haven't painted in ages, was never very good at it, anyway. But I could do the crazier stuff..clay piping, and so on.

  27. Purplesque says:

    Its funny you say that. I'm having trouble managing my own life these days, but somehow helping someone manage theirs makes it easier. You know you're doing something worthwhile..

  28. Purplesque says:

    I think we all care, kk..psychiatrists get to show it more. πŸ™‚

  29. Purplesque says:

    Ha ha..thank you, Z!

  30. LeendaDLL says:

    "do as i say, not as i do" – I'm an expert at that!

  31. OK …I put some of them out for the relatives……they didn't laugh or anything (and I watched closely for giggling eyes!!!) so maybe I'll take pix…..Some of the paint tubes are still soft! YAY!Clay piping? Don't know what that is……sounds interesting.

  32. Purplesque says:

    Yay! I'd love to see them.Clay piping is like icing a cake, except you have clay in the nozzle. I used the clay to outline the painting, then fill it in with thinner clay, let it dry and paint over it- gave it a three dimensional effect. ( The lining clay was mixed with bronze dust, so it was like having a metallic outline.)

  33. I never heard of that– I LOVE the idea of it!!Always wanted to work with clay. WAIT! Is this part of the pottery class?No……..doesn't sound like it.Is it?

  34. Purplesque says:

    No..this is something I did back in India. The 'clay' was actually something you got from the paint store, a fine white dust. It was mixed with white adhesive like Fevicol to make the outline for stained glass paintings, but I took the idea and ran with it. πŸ™‚

  35. It sounds like such a wonderful thing — and not easy to do!You've been too busy, I guess, with your work? Do you have anything you made you could take pix of?

  36. Purplesque says:

    Work, and laziness. It was much easier, back home, just to make a list and hand it to someone to get all the things I needed. We have a family auto business and getting things like paintbrushes and solvent and ply-boards was a breeze.All my artwork is back home. Maybe I can get someone to take pictures..:)

  37. Oh, I hope so! And I'm sorry that you had to leave it behind…what you did and the doing of it.

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